#LuV-iS-sO-bLiNd#

2007-12-01T15:53:00.000+08:00

i was bored so i come here to post one stupid post only.
i guess this blog is the safest blog now. cause i don't think she will go read or smth .
yeah .
maybe today is the day when i end everything ?
letting go is the most hardest thing to achieve .
worse come to worse , its been 7mths going to 8 soon .
she doesnt know , i was in love with her for that long . but who cares right.
i believe there are people who are far more worse than me .
yeah.at first , when i get to know her.
she gave me this feeling where i can be happy , going for her.
is like some kind of sense of secure. like some confirmation you know.
but i guess she s wrong.
many things stays in my mind very long.
some had to be erase , some had to be express .
whats have to be erase , i cant.
whats have to be express , i cant said it out .
my friend told me , letting go means willing to let her go with someone else.
i am willing to. but hurt is what i gain.
well , its love , you see.
this is what love means to me.
i let go but i still love her. is for both sake.
i don't want to be hurt .
she doesnt want to stand my nonsense.
why not just end everything .
maybe i am standing in her way in her love life. ?
maybe i am just a jinx in her life?
i don't know .
never heard her stopping me for getting out of her life.
i said let go and nothing happens next.
well . maybe thats whats she wants all along.

to you.
yes i am being jealous all along.
and is very jealous.
whats the point telling you ?
yahs you wont stop me from telling you but have you ever think of
are you going to do anything about it even i tell you.
i think most probably you wont even want to do anything but just smile and think its a joke
or something thats not serious to you.
my patience is not that fun to test with .

2007-08-07T22:05:00.001+08:00

omggggggggg!
tat livejournal thingy is gettin on to my nerves.
need hlp!
anywae..
i goin to leave tis blog SOON!
cos i wil be usin livejournal . (:
mayb depends on my mood lahs.
i wil update here too xD
right. nights!

2007-08-05T11:36:00.000+08:00

HIS SMILE IS PICTURED IN MY MIND. (:

THIS TIME IS NOT ONLY 5MIN.

IT KEPT ME SMILING FOR THE WHOLE DAY .

" I was walking near seven eleven door , suddenly he came out.

We are only less than 1 metre away , he gave me a big smile. "

" It was the second time! "

2007-08-05T00:02:00.000+08:00

detective tragedy

everything went back to normal, i suppose?
singfest coming soon .
not goin cos de ticket is very ex. ):
but go oso no use cos no headbanging ):
if dere s gazette s concert is a 100% i will go .
whn i watch de live of de song detective tragedy
i like aoi s scream.
i like their expressions.
but they wont com to singapore & tats sad.
tml goin out with my cousin .
in de evening. :/
hope to watch movie called ALONE.
when i was lookin at my past pictures ,
in my comp .
one of them made me miss sumone ..
well , is in de past .
tat wil be one of de most beautiful memory . (:

2007-08-02T20:55:00.000+08:00

i love tis pic alot alot alot. x)

right.hmm ..

today is a freakin annoyin day .

mayb cos of PMS.

many many ppl annoyed me.

got tis big word VIOLENCE appear in my head almos the whole day .

i got irritated easily now a days.

& i got de face telling ppl that i will burst anytime.

dunnoe y like tis.

mayb is .. stress?!

i think social studies is now fixed in my brain

cos i wrote de same old notes over n over again for 3 times .

i look at different races of ppl .

i will start thinkin abt de history of those riots n all .

tats bad ok!

how can las time ppl being so mean .

is like livin together in de same country .

own ppl . stil wan to fight?!

ok i m tokin rubbish .

livejournal is gettin on to my nerves.

need hlp?! rahh .

tis few weeks.. i m in a process of throwin love away .

throw throw throw YOU away.

i am staying on the safe path of life.

goin to wash my sins away .

not going to leave my soul in the past.

now i am getting it back (:

2007-08-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

my nex boyfren.. KANG DOO. x)
omg. he s damn hot in de show goong S lahss..
goin to chiong tis drama.
x)

2007-07-31T21:13:00.000+08:00

i got alot of things to do .
tml got social studies as standard test.
literature is really bad.
ms pilo is angry abt de test thing.
tok kong chairman now very stress ):
haiss.
tml lit test is very scary . cos its gonna be hard.
well its our punishment.
after sch , studied with siti.sarah.zaiba & sam at macs.
onli me.siti n sarah r studyin . zaiba cant get her head in studyin.
sam is doin her art hw.
lols.
nvm tml we goin to macs n study again .
now i m kinda gettin in to studyin .
i guess weekends r de only 2 days i can take a rest.
:S
now a days got serious finance prob .
hav to pay for tis n tat.
so afraid to ask my parents for money.

" don't do harm to anyone even if they do harm to you "
thats wad i learnt today for literature.

2007-07-31T20:21:00.000+08:00

my long 'lost' fren. although u r soo far away from me. but i noe u stil wil rmb me n i wil rmb u (:

thnks for always being dere for me.

*ltr she sees tis she wil gei siao again -.-* lols

mother ! <3>

angklung peeps. thnks for givin me faith & trust.
so grateful to hav you guys ard.

supporting me all along.

jo. you r de one hu always teng me . trust in me. i m happy alrdy
i will write letters to u more often ..

i wont forget the times we had.

i will nv forget the memories.
the ups & downs we had

all the crying&laughin

we wont be together as jie mei if deres no

you noe hu .

but .. i stil mus thnk you for being dere for me.

seen me cry;smile;go crazy;lame ard & lastly.

pei me go through hard times cos of love.

you will be my unforgettable jie meis. (:

2007-07-29T17:02:00.000+08:00

it shows clearly of how i m feeling now.

2007-07-29T13:41:00.000+08:00

i am so grateful to hav loretta ard in my life.
she s the one hu always hlp me with storms in life.
although i might not be forgiven in probs.
but my mother wil always pull me through n we be in a place with rainbows n colours.
i noe i cant depend too much on her ; frens.
wad if one day i m left alone.
i stil hav to move on by myself.
everytime whn i did smth rong .
i apologise & things went bac to normal .
but 2 times things didn went bac to normal .
i cant be stuck dere forever .
cos many beautiful things i hadnt seen in my future.
one of them will be in paris.
i wan to work hard n concentrate to pursue my dream .
mistakes . i learnt frm it.
n noe i mus not repeat it again .
n i m not goin to let it block my way .
now jus hav to concentrate on both studies n cca.
i realise my age isnt an age for partyin ard.
study is wad i hav to do .
n frens will always be de most important thing in my life.
they wil always pei me when i m in heavy rains n sunshines.
i love you guys.

I was crying when I met you. says:
if you know you are in the wrong, then apologise to them.
I was crying when I met you. says:
but if they aint going to forgive you, it's their problem.
I was crying when I met you. says:
because you are guilty of what you've have done already,
I was crying when I met you. says:
you cant possibly blame all the faults on you.

2007-07-27T20:31:00.000+08:00

now a days the weather suits my mood alot.
so cold. :/
i got major mental prob today in class. :( sry guys.
but i was touched of wad ppl wrote in my purple booklet (:
thnks guys.
right.
so after sch , freakin upset. dun wan to say y .
head to clare s hse .
watch stomp the yard or smth
lols.
their dance not bad lahs.
lols. is abit easy for me to imitate. lols !
funny.
den went white sands.
sat at macs for awhile. slack slack . laugh laugh .
den HOME.
stupid bus uncle pissed me off.
sucker.
yahs tat abt it.
ltr goin to meet jan n jo . (:

to S.O.B : dont be so sad ler lahs.
hope u got receive my tis msg frm my fren to u .
cos i dun feel like talkin to u
cos u say i m SCARY.
asshole. nvm . cheer up lahs.
ltr no one wil suan me again . tsk . xD

2007-07-27T20:26:00.000+08:00

过敏

你消失的一百天
我没了笑脸怕别人看见
我敏感的神经线
一点一点没知觉

泛红双眼不成眠
它跟着我一整夜
麻痹的脸特效药也无解
才发现我正搁浅在爱情过敏的季节
oh过敏源是对你的思念

我想我才了解
我正停格在爱情过敏的季节
季节没改变是想念没断线

我想我才发现
感情尘蹒已布满了我的世界
oh过敏源是为你流的泪
我想我才了解
就算用尽了力气也未必如愿
季节没改变是眼泪弄湿脸

季节一直变
但我的心没有变

你消失的一百天
我没了笑脸没知觉

2007-07-26T22:40:00.000+08:00

no promises.

tired . tired & tired.

sch was like cold shit.

everything was ok.

jus cant stop slpin right after recess!!

rahh!

so fattening. :(

POA was wild.

lols.

after sch , lunch at e canteen.

chels is crazyy.

she can laugh over small things.

so amazing .

yahs.

cca ..

crap with gladys .

lols.

got abit of junior prob :/

dunnoe y juniors now a days so tsktsk. BAD!

play n play n perform

embarrassing man .

stupid banana thingy again . -.-

after cca. dinner with sam n zaiba.

felt weird without lim lim :(

dunnoe wad happen to her.

after dinner HOME.

i sees it.

one fist will go against de wall of my room .

I FUCKING HATE IT.

enuff is enuff.

dun wan to care alrdy.

2007-07-25T23:15:00.003+08:00

ALICENINE! in sch uniform!
SPOT SAGA! my beloved husband.
omg. he s so hot in uniform.
if onli sg got such hot person like him in sch uniform
i wil jus faint man .xD

2007-07-25T22:17:00.000+08:00

reita is so hot! omg! if onli he is really my husband! GOD!*nose bleed**faints*gazette members all change alot. they look more hot man! shit lahs .make me faint onli hahas.

CRUCIFY SORROW

tis is one of my fav. song of gazette . stil got summore i m goin to post up.

their concert fuckin rocks man .
their flith in beauty , head banging is sooo temptin me wan to go dere too

erm got one album name stacked rubbish .
is one of e horror movie OST. omg. fuckin nice.
but tis concert , worthless war . they sang all their songs from e album
decomposition beauty . n summore summore.
SAM! faster go watch. i watch alrdy arhs.
i faint on de spot cans XD

DISCHARGE.
watch the headbanging!! ruki scream de bes of de bes! xD

TAION! sam! watch!
ruki is damn gud in tis song.

SILLY GOD DISCO.
they danced! so cute lahs. esp my husband xD

COCKROACH .
one of my fav song too.
sumhow kai reminds me of sam lols!!

ppl r encouraged to watch X)

2007-07-25T18:41:00.000+08:00

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I WENT SHOPPING?!u>
rahhh! today suck.
i shall tell u guys y .
everyone is like busy with tutions n tutorial ..
& is like i m de onli idiot nth to do. hahas!
nvm . luckily i got clare & ball xD
wednesday is always de day all lessons 2 periods.
ms pilo didnt com.
dunnoe wad happen to her.
:/ well. but lit today damn suck until cannot suck . hahas.
de graded assignment.
suppose to do 2 questions.
BUT! i forgot tat is a graded assignment .
n tot is 'exam'
so i chose onli 1 question.
did half way i fell aslp.
i dreamt abt lizards which look small n flat.
ewww. hahas okay.
so after sch , got nowher to go. so i joined clare n ball .
ball got maths tutorial .
which was held at ' mount everest '
damn tiring lahs.
send ball to 'mount everest'
den clare.charlene & me went canteen to eat. ?
actually not really eat. lols.
lim lim joined us.
we all drank soup except for charlene.hahas.
so after all de walking ard in sch .
climb here n dere.
god ! damn tired lahs.
until 3.3o
suppose to meet sam go eat tang yuan
but! she wants to go macs.
saddd case.
lols.so i went to white sands wif ball n clare.
i kept laughin . dunnoe y.
they got sum laughin disease tat made me laugh non stop at e bus stop .
yahs. so went ws macs.
ate ice cream . n laugh like idiots.
lols! we observe & tok abt ppl until we laugh alot.
hahas. yahs.
now thnks to clare.
ppl love to call me FUCK FACE now .
cos of de stupid monkey act. lols!
thnks arhs!
lols. yahs .
den went home .. i was daydreaming.
dreamt tat hope one day money will drop from de sky
so i can go shopping.
i wan to shop! omggggggg! is like YEARS i nv go shoppin ok .
lols. well , mayb its time to go out n find work . :/
my mother first time ask me whether i need a new book of harry potter anot.
omg i felt so touched hahas!
i say no. but actually my heart is yes ! hahas!
hais. i guess its time to support myself wif finance.! rahhhh!

cant wait for sunday .
hopefully my xin wil piao piao again. HOHOS! x)

2007-07-24T21:07:00.000+08:00

hahas now a days

i m kinda crazyy over devian arts photos.

those photographer r real talented in tis man .

well today , quite tired.

passed aurelia s pressie.

ahahs hope she like it.

today is de creative comp .

so damn funny man .

'monkey business'

when its our turn .

got sum scenes.

me n frank was controlling our laughter .

n sum parts kept slient.

seen all de fuck face . damn! laugh like mad cow.

so after creative comp .

we hav to paint de canvas.

omg. nv ever take art class.

i realised almos all art PERFECTIONIST r physco freaks.

lols.

step in only , tat stupid art teacher start naggin like mad!

god! i swear i wish i could jus take de paint n paint on her face.

hahas. one part damn funny.

she say we r very unfair to those gers hu behave well

wth! den wad she say we tot de canvas is her face.

den we draw many like "F" word n all .

omg. all of us r like angry but controllin our laughters too .

yahs.

while we paint those canvas.

chels n siti went to noe de results of creative comp

n guess wad..

WE GOT IN ! we hav to perform for sec1.2.3s .

tat is hell madness.

hahas.

well all thnks to chels.

i noticed she has sum leadership thingy in her.

ltr she sees tis . dunnoe wad her reaction wil be. lols!

yepp .

almos all of us r drenched cos we r cleaning those stupid brushes.

den me.zaiba.sam.lim lim went to bedok inter de hawker n eat.

miss de chow kuay tiao .

but i ate tang yuan again .

dunnoe y i love tang yuan so much .

xD after eating , went home.

i seriously not goin to eat so much anymore.

mus slim dwn! rahhhhh!

tml standard test.phy n bio .

need sum luck! :S

shld i ask ?

oh anywae.

thnks people for visitin my blog.

2007-07-23T21:59:00.000+08:00

rahh! my eyes r closing .
damn tired.
cca was hell madness.
preparing for creative comp.
god! we hav to act like mad monkey which goes screamin almos all de time.
but it didn cheer me up .
after cca ,
went night market at bedok with sam.lim lim&zaiba.
i ate tang yuan again .
sam noe her father de bes. whn i want to eat tang yuan..
means i m feeling _______ smth smth lols
sry sam n summore peeps.
tat i cut myself again .
its like cannot be control ?
i tryin my bes not to cut alrdy
after tat, went home.
ltr goin to study physics. tuesday mus study bio.
omg. my brain is goin to burst.
i mus like store all de sci stuffs in to my freakin brain .
i cannot fail tis time again .
oh shit! now i rmb abt my chinese project.
omgggggggg~ i wan to sleep!!T_T
right.
tml performance! rahhh! wish us gud luck

to S.O.B : dun be sad.
read ur blog. well stil got me =x
man if gladys or loretta sees tis.
they might think i m mad or smth hahahs!

i shall keep my mouth n eyes shut tight.
not going to say anything .
not going to think of it ,
i need to concentrate on studies.

psst. de guy in my tuition class makes my xin piao for 5min -.=

hahas !

2007-07-22T18:16:00.000+08:00

well.
i guess i need time to heal.
goin to settle dwn soon .
n continue studying .
wads gonna happen nex is not goin to be started by me.
all i m doin now is waiting.
i had enuff of crying .
cried almos every night jus to fall asleep.
feel so dry now.
tml dere s sch.
got cca.
hope cca wil cheer me up .
hopefully it does.
pray super hard no teachers wil spoil my day .
didn hope any miracles to happen .
cos i noe it wouldnt happen .

have ur own enjoyment .
& so i shall too .

2007-07-22T01:00:00.000+08:00

i m the greatest DUMB on earth.
being fooled by fuckin blind love.
i felt like an idiot.
stupidly fall in love.
stupidly got hurt.
everything is jus a nightmare.
i hope it doesnt happen on reality .
now dere s no such person.
n dere s no msges n calls.
no more.
frustrated.trapped.sad.
de piercing doesnt HURT!
dere s other thing tats hurt more than a needle tat poke through my lips.
i feel like screaming.
dere s no turnin bac.
she wil be happy without my existence on tis world.
i am bac to my own world. .

u will never come back
my dreams will turn into nightmares.
rainbows will turn in to storms .

2007-07-21T14:13:00.000+08:00

woke up from a nightmare las night.
so tired and numb.
sense of pain has gone.
well mayb whn i pierce my lips ,
i can get bac to normal again .
crying doesnt hlp .
nv again goin to repeat tis kind of mistake again .
i dun wan to be begged to let go.
i m lettin go by myself.
want to move on .
but its so hard.
thnks jan for tokin sense into me. (:
i feel better abit lers.
thnks jo for concerning me.
i m happy n i miss u alot (:

losing my smiles away.
moving on with scars that are left.

2007-07-20T19:34:00.000+08:00

damn hurt & stress
too distracted cant study .
teared so much las night
today is jus another day of sadness

mayb i m jus paranoid?

2007-07-19T20:36:00.000+08:00

people only treasure;cherish when they lose it

ytd i studied bio like mad n today was de test. it was like a...
o.O total blur. but i tried.
most of the lessons , i m stuggling like mad.
cos i was damn sleepy.
tryin very hard to cope with physics n POA.
aurelia s bdae is tml .
goin to get her smth .
sak went home early today cos she fell sick .
take care alrights!
after sch , went lunch with cca peeps.
chels is disgusting.
she had her drink in her mouth n eggs.
den she laughed n she puke .
noe y she laugh? cos i told her abt de story i wrote for narrative writting.
funny mehs.
de story is so sad one lahs. n she laugh like sum idiot. hahas !
right .
so cca , i was distracted .
cos almos everyone were not being themselves.
i dunnoe y m i always being so paranoid.
need sumone to teach me to stop being like tat .
but i m sure one person is really weird .
so i m not crazyy or wad.
yahs.
after cca, dinner wif zaiba.sam n lim lim .
did sum confessions . xD
funnaye.
b4 tat , whn we were walking dere.
i dunnoe y i suddenly felt like cryin badly.
suddenly like got ' no gravity '
tat kind of thing.
n everything seems to be movin in a slow motion sliently.
i dunnoe y m i like tis.
so stressin . ):

running away and not expected to be found.

2007-07-18T21:11:00.000+08:00

right.i m re-blogging.
stupid comp dunnoe wads rong.
anywae. today standard test ,
prepared to lose 4 marks . hais.
yahs .. de whole day , like zombie. hahas
but was abit high .
xD
most of de lesson today is all language lessons.
i wrote a super longggggggg story for narrative writting . hahas.
madd .
social studies , i was damn happy .
first time . i got gud marks.
literature , learnt a no. of values from ms pilo .
mayb she s hintin to us. we might not noe.
after sch , went sak s hse.
clare . sak n me were suddenly tokin abt L word thingy
den from L word we tok abt makin out.
woooo! hahas! k we r sick but it kept me awake all of e sudden.
damn funny lahs.
i cant wait for tat day to com.
hahas. !
den ltr i shall ce hu arhs .. *ahem ahem*
lols.
but i think my plan wont be success.
sian lers.
yahs after tat , went tm wif sam.zaiba n soo soo .
hahas! they r so funny n lame lahs.
i wan to buy many stuffs man . :/
i cant wait for holidays , want to pierce my lips.
x)
revised my bio jus now at home .
was abit troubled.
cos i simply cant make decision.
xD
haiyahs. de bes is dun care . n end up i m a fool again .
well, everyone has been actin weird lately.
dunnoe y .
they r so not themselves.
tml cca. got POA. rahhhhhh! die die.

distracted!
happiness only existed in dreams .
sooner or ltr i will have to wake up.
sumtimes i wonder ,
whether sumone do mean wad they say anot.
ESPECIALLY S.O.B
tat one is totally " aiyahs jus send those msges make ppl shuang onli "
rahh! i m anti s.ob n palm trees!

2007-07-17T18:23:00.001+08:00

Taurus - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad.
You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice.
Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly... saving yourself from heartbreak.

Your negative traits:

Money is very important to you, so much so that it's a cause of arguments in relationships.
If your lover isn't loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander...
You tend to keep things inside - so your partner may not know when or why you're upset.

Your ideal partner:

Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you.
Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave.
A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart.

Your dating style:

Comfortable and traditional. You'd love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant.

Your seduction style:

Love comes first for you before you'd even think of intimacy.
Traditional: you're not a cold fish - but you're not into kink either.
Pleasing... you always make sure that your partner is having a good time.

Tips for the future:

Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you.
Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best.
Lighten up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions.

Best color to attract mate: Pale blue

Best day for a date: Friday

What's Your Love Profile?

2007-07-17T17:43:00.000+08:00

de documentary abt WASTED PPL.

is damn funny.

one part when chels say SITI IS ABT TO PUKE. hahahs!

so freakin funny .

omggggg!!

hahas. k.

abt today ..

my soul is away from my body ahhas!

i m wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy too tired.

my eyes r like gonna close anytime. hahs.

oh ITS RACIAL HARMONY WEEK.

damn de food r nice.especially dao suan . hahas!

right. so after sch , i cant wait to go home n throw myself on to de bed.

in de bes.

got tis group of sec1s ..

one of them is super rude until i feel like throwin my book at her face.

is like her auntie or huever came .

den she was like so damn rude lahs.

wth. in de bus , she n de bus driver so called argue.

almos everyone in de bus standin r sacians.

den all of us r like lookin at tat grp of sec1s.

so attention freak lahs.

tsktsk. tats bad.

sec 1 like tat. hais

wad can i do.

tis world is CORRUPTED! rahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

k lols. i m mad.

goin to study for maths ltr.

:/ got standard test tml.

MUS PASS MUS PASS!

hehes.

anywae happy racial harmony.

i dun welcome racist!

bleahh .

2007-07-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

rahh!
today , sch was alright.
dismissed at 12.45
went out with cca peeps! [ siti.sak.chels.gladys.alaine.clare.ball.SON!.lim lim ]
hahas.
went suntec
watched harry potter.
was super high all de way .
after movie,
went macs to eat.
sumhow i laughed for nth hahahs!
idiot -.=
tryin very hard to cheer sum ppl up.
son is violent!
tsktsk tats baddd
den we left de place n was in de train .
tis freak'in auntie. bside ball .
was super asshole.
want to complain whn we didn do anything to her ?
tats badd!
rahhh!! stupid world. wads is rong mannn.
CORRUPTED! i shall slay all evil. ok i m being lame here.
ahhas! today is jus my day .
JAVIN SANG GEI WO NI DE AI.
jus nice remind me of *toot*. oso remind jan of *toot* n oso remind jo of *toot*
hahas. las time de us arhs. hahas!
memories.
omg. JAVIN IS SO CUTE
i wan to faint alrdy. ahhas cute eh !
right.
oh! i watched tat friday night vid tat chels took .
stupid ass. so embarrassing. xD
siti n zaiba r wayyyyy too FUNNAYE.
i was cryin like mad cow! god ! now den i realised hahas!
den i oso watched other of chels vids.
funny man .
well. de vid can make ppl laugh so is a gud thing xD
tml got sch . SUPER BORING!
my sixth sense tells me tml is goin to be very very boring .
SPORTS CARNIVAL is comin!
goin to take part in SAC CUP hahas! fun ! hehes. cant wait yeah .
yahs. ok! gtg do my stuffs alrdy .

*psst my father is irritain me to de MAX*

2007-07-15T22:35:00.000+08:00

today, went tuition.

after tat met sak n siti at sch opposite.

waited fer clare.ball.alaine n gladys.

head to cafe .

i was not feeling gud since whn i left hse.

is like my heavy was so heavy with tears but i cant cry it out.

so ate at cafe.

after eating , went bac to sch .

goin to watch tis concert call dunnoe wad dim sum dollies arhs.

funny but i actually can cry in de middle of de show after interval.

after tis whole thing.

i went home.

i dunnoe wads happening to me.

love starin into spaces soo much .

n tears can jus roll dwn .

i dunnoe wads rong.

my heart is way too heavy with tears.

couldnt find any ways to vent anger on.

i punch de lift .

i played de guitar.

stil doesnt hlp at all .

i dunnoe wad i wan .

need help here badly. ):

2007-07-15T02:29:00.000+08:00

happy stuffs abt today :

went out wif kengling . jasmine . ac . ak . sherlene & erm i m sorry i forgot ur name ger. x)

watched harry potter at lido .

funny cos de bangala bside kl is irritating her.

kl seems to be violent o.O! whn watchin show.

hahas. she wants to sai de baby. hahas!

she wasted 5 bucks watchin bangla instead of show .

lols funnaye.

they make me laugh alot. (:

love yahs peeps.

@#*& stuffs abt today :

i dun wan to blog abt it .

jus gonna say my feelings.

when i board de bus ,

i m so @#*& tat i almos teared n feel like smashin de windows of de bus

with my fist.

when i alighted , i feel like running away .

runnin into no direction n cry.

when i reach home ,

i feel like fallin on de to floor n stare into spaces.

let my tears roll dwn .

when i was bathing , i feel like jus standin dere n cry whn showering.

when i finish bathing , i feel like throwing my phone aside n dun care abt it.

n now , i m sittin in front of my comp bloggin all tis shit.

i played my guitar of de song when you re gone by avril lavigne.

till my fingers had red lines of de strings.

i cant slp. is way to numb when u cant feel anything .

when i look at my tattoo ..

it remind of de time whn i was doin it .

i had a flash back ,

in de room , i sat dwn facin back

de needle went in and it was draggin .

my mind couldnt think of de pain but de pain of lettin go sumone hu i love alot.

it bleeds .

my eyes r closin tight .

stoppin my tears from comin out.

n when i look at de scar of my lip piercing ,

i started thinkin of de pain .

i thought of tat time , i am so depressed.

i had both tongue n lips piercing .

pain isnt hurt.

well although it cures de pain in my heart.

but it left me a scar.

which will always remind me of de painful past i had.

i had decided . not to look on de past anymore startin from NOW.

i promise n i mean it.

2007-07-14T11:44:00.000+08:00

i m so sorry for las night.
feeling so guilty and shameless.
i dunnoe how to face ppl .
de mess i had created ,
has make everyone so sad abt it.
i didn mean it to .
i read mother s blog.
i m so sorry .
i dunnoe how to face u anymore.
mayb all those things i had said ,
has been kept to myself fer a very long time.
i had a very bad past
when guys actually insult me very badly.
tat thing has been in my mind til now.
its hard to forget.
its nv been wash away .
i m oso takin time to hav self confidence bac although it has been years alrdy .
abt love.
i cant accept de fact sumone is attached.
everytime , i force myself to think ok tat person is attached.
i noe it doesnt mean i cannot like her rite.
but its like , she s makin me fall for her more n more.
in de end of tis i stil tell myself to face de fact she s attached.
abt frens.
abt gladys.i m ok wif it now.
cos i can tell she s tryin to change bac.
we r all giving her time.
dun worry .
mus thnks to ppl includin u hu told her she change.
if no one voice out , she wil be like de ' not gud ' forever.
i m glad to hav u guys ard.
i m happy tat at least i m not alone.
i really love you guys alot.
from las night onwards, i had realised i m blessed wif frens.
startin to cherish you peeps.
i hope no more frenship prob again in de future.
I STIL WANT TO GRADUATE WITH YOU PPL! (:

i love you.

2007-07-12T22:43:00.000+08:00

BREAD IS CUTE! right~

k. i was being forced to blog tat.
lols!
anywae. today sch was alright.
cant stop fallin aslp .
rahhhh!
its ok to fall aslp at a not important lesson ahhahs!
yahs.
was abit moody cos of my pms ..
everyone had been actin weird lately.
or issit me?
k. so cca cheered me up .
not whn fat bastard came.
hell arrives too .
she made us knee dwn on to de floor n check de skirt length .
sucker.
den dunnoe wad wan put marble on our skirts whn we r sittin on de chairs
to make us close our legs whn we r sittin
wth!
so lame lahs.
marbles?!
played syf songs.
it ended happily .
so home.
den sumone again n again SPOIL MY MOOD!
sians.
but ltr at night . i wasnt mad at her anymore
yahs.

well. to tat person arhs.
dun be sad anymore alrights.
u r stil sick.
so dun even make urself emotionally sick . =)
anywae i miss u too xD

2007-07-11T22:50:00.000+08:00

fuglyin sleeping beauty,
who does not belong to the royals.
she was sleeping alone up in the tower,
where only nightmares could be found.
no one could save her ,
all the fairies and her prince ,
had already lived happily ever after.

2007-07-11T19:30:00.001+08:00

STRESSED UP.!

i was so super excited fer friday night.
cant wait fer tat day , whn everyone dress up nicely.
enjoyin themselves n all.
but my mum jolly spoils it.
fucked up .
so pissed tat i cried .
i dunnoe y i so stupid n childish of me to cry.
mayb cos of PMS.
jus couldnt stand anymore.
when was de las time she went out wif me ?
when was de las time she chat wif me ?
WHEN WAS DE LAS TIME I BUY CLOTHES?!
she say she s gonna cancel my line by de end of tis month
whn i m like jus holdin my fone
hopin fer a fuckin miracle to happen ?!
i alrdy got enuff hurt frm other stuffs.
now tis shit mother gave me tis kind of shit thing
all she cares is tat motherfucker JOVAN FOO.
ever since he step into de family.
i was like invinsible.
so tired alrdy ..
i guess i wont turn up fer friday night?

right. no need to highlight de words alrdy .
i m sorry tat i cant cheer u up.

2007-07-11T01:23:00.000+08:00

I closed my eyes just to feel whether the pain is real
i had decided!
study hard. put aside everything.
i dun wanna care anything except studies n frens.
tml sch. gud luck to myself.

i could onli watch & listen

2007-07-10T13:56:00.000+08:00

When you walk awayI count the steps that you takeDo you see how much I need you right now?

right.now i m listenin to the song ' when you're gone'

by avril .

wa lau damn sad lahs. de mv.

shld watch shld watch .

ltr my mother n charissa coming! yay yay !

(: but i feel like goin to de beach.

sumhow got tis feelin wan to go walk walk n breathe in fresh air. hahas.

yahs.. now waitin fer time to pass. :/

oh! to ppl hu r falling ill now.

may you guys recover fast! so you can save the earth hahas! wth .

drink more water . cos de weather sucks.

rest more cos i bet most of u do not hav enuff slp .

kays. tats it. =)

i am wondering what issit u wan to tell?

smth tats hurtful ? i m alrdy prepared. (:

2007-07-09T22:02:00.001+08:00

SICK!
i went home after recess .
was soo breathless. ):
well. everyone is falling sick too .
n tats a bad thing.
anywae.
went to ce doc.
he say is asthma n not enuff slp .
hahas. stress mahs. how to hav enuff slp .
after ce doc.
went home rest.
watch 200 pound beauty again
i wan to cry man. tat show is seriously sad
actually i wan to go bac sch fer cca.
but my mum dun allow :/
hahas! n i noe GOT PPL MISS ME!
tml wil hav ppl visit me! yay!!!
i miss them man .
one of them is de nipple visitor hahahas!!
u noe hu arhs.
i mus catch up wif my work if not i wil dang dang dang~DIE!

how i wish everything is jus a dream .

2007-07-08T22:07:00.001+08:00

PUSH ME OFF THE CLIF

BEFORE YOU SAY YOU DONT LOVE ME

alright. first thing.

HAPPY BDAE TO XY!! (:

yays! x)

after tuition , went to my aunt s place dere.

cos of my niece s bdae.

which is a super lammmeeee party. *it sucks* =x

after my niece bdae , i went to town to meet xy n peeps.

sam is de bes of de bes.

marina = wisma.

wisma = marina.

i took public transport until my ez link no $$

walk ard. laugh here n dere.

lols.

sam want to buy many many things. tsktsk.

she bought me a cow pencil.

*ahem cos i was ~~angry ?~~*

hahas. nvm i stil LOVE it ! x)

den walk fer awhile den HOME.

sam!!! dun be sad! ur father wil be ur bes listener. xD

right.

well , sumhow i hate tis kind of feeling

whn both frustration n depression are mixed together.

is either i feel like takin my guitar n smash it .

or scream like nobody s business.

kay. die my asthma is coming bac. ):

tml wil be my super bad mood & hair day .

tis happiness onli last fer 1 night.

2007-07-08T12:25:00.000+08:00

today is a super boring day..zzz
my eyes r like goin to close anytime?
rahhhhhhhhh!
anywae . i m in love wif tis song by nelly furtado is Say It Right.
i love it man.
ahhh!
i cant stop thinkin of happy times . especially las night.
but tis happiness most probably is onli temporary .
at least it kept me happy fer awhile. x)
aiyahs dun care lahs. urgh!
alrights. ltr i m goin to see my cousin again .
i ~~miss~~ her man =x hahas!
dunnoe she now graduatin frm uni anot.
yepp .
alright shall blog more things ltr.

i dun care but i stil tryin my bes to let go. =)

2007-07-08T02:53:00.000+08:00

3 of us are Home Happily(:

today is de day.

whn i first time too happy until i cant slp .

so happy till i cant stop smiling to myself. =)

arhhhh! madness xD

hahas. we so called had a love delivery ? lols!

queued up fer DONUTS!

god! 3hrs man ..

leg goin to break .

first stop! me.jan&jo chiong to clarke quay first.

jan s love donuts to ah bee. x)

we all were tired man.

chiong frm places to places like mad cow.

2nd stop! cab dwn to tamp .

eeyer i dun wan to blog tis . SKIP SKIP! x)

den blah blah .

one thing i can say. i was frustrated ! rahhh! xD

3rd stop! took mrt n bus to rene s hse.

jo s love donuts to rene.x)

everyone ended it happily .

jan s ending is de sweetest .

larvena s endin is de most romantic.

my ending is de most funniest.

jo is all de combination lols!

so happy to ce everyone s happy.

wooooo! alrights gtg zzz.

just this I am happy already .

2007-07-06T22:18:00.000+08:00

love kiddos. x)

the unglam
girlfriends <3

right. today sch is perfectly GREEN

everyone is green.

it reminds me of an emotion. green = jealousy .

hahas!

anywae. after sch , went out wif clare.alaine.ball.loretta.charissa.

ate at KFC, den suddenly got tis man ..

quite freaky but poor thing lahs.

he suddenly held my hand as in grab noe!

my another hand was holdin my hp n wallet

i tot he s gonna take my stuffs .

but he gave me tis paper dunnoe write wad.

den i oso dunnoe wad he saying .

he asked fer money cos he needs money .

so i jus gave him 50 cents cos i m broke? lols.

yahs. den after KFC , bought strepsils.

buy kinda alot lahs

cos i m like dyin for it.

keep coughin n sneezin like mad cow.

den walk ard, digest food.

after digesting , went neoprint shop to take many many pics.

after takin pics , went home ..

so tired. n fell sick !! fucccccckkkk man~

slight fever . =( sad.

lols.

de more you hurt urself ,

de more heavy my burden is. =/

----

i just wanna get out of tis love thing. end it n no more .

2007-07-05T20:53:00.000+08:00

jus goin to blog a short one
den off to my work! x)
alrights..
sum of de things r solved.
things went bac to normal.
i want to say tis to sumone frm my sch .
i feel very bad
cos i didn hav de same feeling as u .
although u r always being dere fer me.
but i stil n onli treat u like my small sister ; PTS.
sumtimes i think is karma,
tat way i treat u . is how now another person is treatin me now.
is hurtful i noe.
but y cant u let me noe u r hurt almos all e time.
i wil try to hlp u n all .
but now i think i m jus a piece of shit.
cant do anything much but givin u hurt everytime.

i m sorry ..

2007-07-05T19:45:00.000+08:00

I Don't Love You Lyrics

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

2007-07-04T22:05:00.000+08:00

ENUFF OF BACKSTABBING PLS!
i m jus goin to die of high blood pressure. =(
now a days de weather is gettin worse!
lim lim say now de temperature is 42
tat is crazy man.
hahas. today me .siti . sak n lim lim r tokin abt death ..
cos of global warming.
if one day , judgement day is coming .
i m so goin to hug sumone n die together hahahas!!
too drama alrdy xD
funnaye.
yup .
tats it fer today ..
tml wil be havin cca! =) so happy but prepare fer doom .
lols.

y jus bcos of one bung .

everyone is like tis?

didn u guys learnt frm ur mistakes?

----

好想抱你直到明天

怎么这双手又退却.

2007-07-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

does anyone noe tat kind of feeling
whn you cant stop crying.
and de more u cry
de more less painful ur heart is.
but sumhow de pain couldn finish pourin out

2007-07-03T19:17:00.000+08:00

i like his hair . cool huh. hahas !
he is tora! x) hehs.
anywae.. i m now bloggin so ltr i can do my work .
=)
CAJ is killing me.
i need one las article.
total mus hav 11. T_T
so torturing!
i left 1 mth to buck up n pass ALL subs !
=S i got a strong feeling i wil retain .
i m like de onli idiot failed all except chinese?!
i mus really be grateful to hav sak n siti to hlp me.
THNKS MAN . love u darls. hahas.
k. so today , is quite a strugglin day .
struggle to concentrate n put all de stuffs tat i learnt today in to my brain .
yep .
lit was soooo ... dots.
sum of us didn bring e mockin bird book so we all sat outside cos we r suppose
to think of solution?!lols.
instead we spend our time tokin abt other stuffs.
after sch , i went home wif clare n alaine.
was soooo frustrated to stay in sch n play cos of super BAD hair day.
lols.
well , i was kinda frustrated early in de mornin till noon.
cos of personal stuffs . n frustrated cos of my freakin hair! rahh!!
hehs durin recess , glad n loretta say i can replace de avenged sevenfold singer.
cos i scream x) yeah! screamo ! =)
yahs. so after sch , home str away .
i cant stop laughin cos i keep repeatin e sentence to clare.
' it doesnt counts if u saw a _ _ _ _ _ _ ' hahahhahas !
funnaye hahas !
so until 4++ bathe . rest .
went dwn to sch opposite to meet siti n sak fer dinner ? lols.
ate at cafe.
tok abt many stuffs.
now i realised de world i m living now.
dere r many backstabbing.
bitches had shown their true colours.
jealousy kills.
tsktsk tats BAD!
things change fas n bad.
tis yr is not a gud yr fer all of us.
but we stil hav to move on .
i mus blog tis! PEOPLE HAS TURN REALLY EVIL jus because for the sake of their
selfishness.
RAHHHHHHH! i shall save de ppl! i wil kill all evil freaks n they shall be kind again .=)
one day, we shall ce. xD
but first person i will wan to kill fer my own sake is....
> S.O.B <
x) yahs.
ok enuff of killin alrdy .
i had decided! i m not goin to care abt relationship .
i m goin concentrate abt studies all de way ! =)
i mus get promoted. if not i cant join my frens .

2007-07-03T00:27:00.000+08:00

i am the most stupid girl on earth right now

2007-07-01T18:43:00.000+08:00

temporary happiness
might not last long.
but it will stay in my memories
and it will, forever.

2007-06-29T17:03:00.000+08:00

-many hugging imaginations running in my head*_
today, can say is quite a long day in sch. :/
las period . lit.ms pilo didn came.
we r tokin abt 7th month .
scary~
lols.mus start to clip up my frinch
hmm .. after sch .
went cca foyer
pack angklungs fer tml .
doin CIP =)
oh anywae..
HAPPY BDAE TO SAM!
x) happy yeh? lols.
yahs after packin suppose to practice
but atiqah came late -.=
summore percussion usin cca foyer.
sad.
so nvm we went cafe to eat.
yep . tml s goin to be a tiring day .

well things are okay now.

to another person.

i wish i can be the one who can understand u.

but it seems tat , i belong to de ' dun gif a damn ' ppl.

i think me and u , just cant get along.

2007-06-28T21:29:00.000+08:00

the moments I spend with you , is the moment I treasure
well i suddenly think of de las chalet.
so i blog tat quote . x)
anywae today
sch. was ok .
quite boring.
everytime chinese
so boring
keep goin to fall aslp.
so strugglin.=/
chels is so funny today .
xiang jiao xD
after sch ,
went cca .
many ppl had tutorial.
cca is hell fun . until sum freaks came.
wa lau. look dwn on me n sam lahs
asshole. xp
after cca.
sang sam a happy bdae song.
den ate at macs.
den home.

HAPPY BDAE TO JO! =)

i m sorry.
i dun dare to tell u abt my prob.
cos i realised i dun hav de rights n gud reason.

2007-06-27T21:02:00.000+08:00

weird things start to happen on me
i m gettin into keeping things to myself.
i cry whn i was alone.
depend on cuttin whn i cant cry
you don't have to care about tis.
you noe y.
cos i don't want you to feel bad.
you have ur love to care abt
i will be alright.
tis is jus a small depression thing.
its goin to be over very fas..

2007-06-26T23:42:00.000+08:00

sum ppl just love to bitch abt their own frens. *
i wonder hu~
lols.
anywae. doin bio hw.
cant concentrate.. =/
now a days.
dwn wif depression.
RAHH! depression. yeah freaks ppl out man~
dun wan to waste my fuckin energy alrdy.
tml got poa. =/
dun like!
so many books to carry .
sian alrdy ..

dyin of cig.=(

2007-06-26T16:24:00.000+08:00

freakin pissed man today.

wa lau i go frenster onli arhs.

my blood boil like mad ok.

THIS IS HOW I FEEL. ..

pictures explain it all .

tag replies.

[bread . hahas okays. i replied alrdy.nex time rmb to remind me to buy e green tea]

[xy. hahas. wth! no sunglasses line lahs ]

[jy . i wher got bo xim. i got com dwn lors]

2007-06-25T20:08:00.000+08:00

I m damn disappointed in u.
never in my life i want to rmb u .
u just change. to another person
an ah lian.

2007-06-25T19:51:00.000+08:00

my cow loves chilly crab cup noodle!! xD

today is perfectly alright fer me.

but! quite sway lahs.

in class abit sian sian

wa lau n i got tutorial lahs.

suck man but i nv go =x hahas!

i went fer cca.

got caught in de toilet.

wth ! 5 ppl went toilet wifout permission. lols.

funny man tat time.

cca was fun.

alaine is super cute.

cos we were late

n ms wang was scoldin us fer being late fer cca.

den .. whn ms wang ask alaine y she late.

den she happily say.

ALL OF US WENT FER LUNCH ! =)

hahs! i wan to laugh lors.

sad cannot laugh. lols !

funny man she.

i was like O.O! wth! u stil can say tat man.

lols! yahs. tats it fer today .

i realised after tat pain,

i had become more hyper or happier.

mayb bcos of cca?

i dunnoe.

i sumhow jus keep starin at de cuts.

what hurts the most

is being so close.

2007-06-24T14:28:00.000+08:00

RAHHHHHHH! tml is de day i m goin to see ..
my frens.
dm s cb face.
my dead class.
my cca peeps! =)
ppl hu i miss like fuck mad.
ppl hu i wan to kill n
ppl hu wan to kill me.
ppl first ce me will say FUCK LAHS! lols.

my expression fer tml will be.
ZZZ... or! -.=
lols !
i m kinda ~~not~~ excited fer tml.
cos i wan to ce hu got de biggest change.
i m onli excited fer cca .
pray super hard tml got no POA.
yeah .

well. now i m rushin my hw.
stil left bio .=(
i wan to cry alrdy man
i stil got a STACK of notes to copy.
hahas. DIE!

i miss u .
at de same time,
i jus love to ask u to go n die.

2007-06-24T02:44:00.000+08:00

say ahhhh!!
the pic shows..
chels driving n was banging my car n i was beepin at her
sam was sumhow mad n point middle finger towards my mouth hahas!
lim lim is stone-ing.
gladys is hiding frm war.
alaine is showin twist to clare.
but clare is closing her eyes hahas !

chels tried jumpin over tat stupid clone. n it looks SUPER RONG FRM HERE.xD
can u ce de connection ! hahas. i look retarded pls.

i cant stand de net alrdy

is gettin on to my fuckin nerves.

anywae.

today is totally my depression day .

i dunnoe y m i so depressed abt

but sumhow i m like tis .

i m startin to miss many ppl .

especially cca.

monday , sch reopen.

hell s gonna start.

i better buck up alrdy. my studies like shit man. tsktsk .

now syf over. mus work hard alrdy .=(

well jus now i was lookin through sum of my las time neoprints.

i realised i look super nerd las time.

CENTER PARTING!! can u believe it.

omg. is sooo disgustin .lols. den i compare wif recent neoprints.

i feel like laughin man . hahas .

man. i m missin de past rite now.

hahas. yahs.

today is not really my day .

i kept wonderin how r u .
i felt like an idiot like i was being fooled.
not goin to care abt u anymore.

2007-06-22T11:36:00.000+08:00

jus got bac frm chalet.
super tired.
well, i m jus goin to blog abt sum stuffs only.
dun really hav de mood to blog abt the whole thing.
i ve notice myself that i had change to more a bitch.
start showing tempers.
screaming , roll eyes at ppl .
i dislike this.
is gettin on to my nerves.
kept askin myself wad has made me like this .
i was very disappointed on de first night of chalet.
of myself.
n other ppl .
in de end the answer is none.
tats my fate n i accepted it.
i was thinkin if onli i didn go dwntown on tat day,
i wouldn hav met tis person
followed by another.
so tired alrdy .
mayb wad i need is time .
as for frens.
jo. we nv treat u like sparetyre.
u noe me n jan miss u alot.
but we jus didn say .
i m sry tat day i didn reply ur msg. cos my fone low batt.
...

to sumone.
u change alot. (ALOT! 100x )

2007-06-19T20:53:00.000+08:00

i love the sleeping beauty PRINCE!
so damn handsome lahs. omg.
wish my twisted fairytale
wil hav a happy ending.

2007-06-19T01:10:00.000+08:00

well.
now a days i had sleepless nights.
goin to become panda liaos.
thnks alot to s.o.b
dun really hav de mood to update my blog.
i m jus freakin pissed off wif sum ppl.
dunnoe wad issit tat make me so pissed.
but i think is jealousy ?
hahas mayb i think too much .
haiyahs i dun wan to care alrdy lahs.
dun care abt her . dun care abt anything.
jus sit bac n relax.

one time priscilla foo came up , say FUCK OFF.

....

...

it was awesome. xD

DUN LIKE U LAHS. ! MOTHER F.

2007-06-19T00:24:00.000+08:00

4 In The Morning

Wakin up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it’s say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think,
When I let it sink in
It’s all over me
I know you’re here, in the dark
I’m watchin you sleep, it hurts a lot

[Bridge]
And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
And nothing as good,
You know I’d give you all of me

[Chorus]
I’d give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the morning
And the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come and do it right

All I wanted was to know and say
Don’t wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down

It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your lovin for me
We can’t escape the love
With everything that you have

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

2007-06-17T02:21:00.001+08:00

I won't say I'm in love
tooo tired to even blog abt anything
tml sci centre.
dunnoe lahs.
cant be bothered wif anything.

i wish i can smash my broadband.

2007-06-15T01:25:00.000+08:00

well i found tis pic at sam s blog.
xy say i look man -.= *psst! i saw tat tag at sam s blog lors! ass lols*
hahas. tat pic is tat time went sentosa wif them =)
right. so below tis post is all de pic tat they took
today at sentosa .
hahas i love de tanning part.
AHHH! finally go tanned lines. hehehs.x)
den swam wif jan n ah bee.
hahas jan say she saw a jelly fish jus swimmin in de water nex to her.
funnaye ~
yepp so..
after swimming n all.
chels n peeps actually all went missing. -.=
nvm i jus went swimmin n tannin n slackin wif jan n ah bee.
jan got de most sun burnt man.
tsk tsk *shake head*
hahas yepp .
den since chels n peeps haven com bac, so we went bathe first.
whn i finish bathing, they were bac
took pics n stuffs.
fer awhile i went off alrdy.
yahs. after sentosa, went east point to meet jamayne
den went dwn to bugis fer pool.
can play until wah seh . cannot describe.
den ard me n charlotte left first to flag cab
n flag flag flag.
one shit cab oso dun hav.
so we decided to walk bac to de pool place.
half way saw jan n ppl.
they r oso taking cab.
so we r goin to flag cab together.
n u noooooeeeeee.
we stand dwn dere like very very very long
n ONE SAI CAB oso dun hav!
den finally got tis eerie cab came.
i sat de front seat.
i saw tis picture. damn scary.
i m sooooo freakin out.
sum more de uncle tok oso veryy freaky.
yahs. so alight me outside their hse de bus stop,
faster rush home.

more pics to com... =)

2007-06-15T01:02:00.000+08:00

SENTOSA!
starting of the trip

our tanning starts

n bye bye sentosa =)

2007-06-13T21:08:00.000+08:00

Built This Way
today , woke up. ate wanton mee. xD
den ask loretta out.
went tm.
played HSE OF DEAD! x)
hahas. loretta is super tense up whn she play.
she seriously need a chill pill whn she play tat lols.!
after playing , we went cs.
took neoprints. =)
had intentions to eat hagen diaz
but not enuff cash. :/
nvm so we ate swensens x)
after tat, we ate fried mushrooms!! n i c e~
den i say i wan to go her hse n watch sum movies.
so went her hse but b4 tat,
we walk ard in tis night market at whitesands dere.
bought cup corn. lup chiong. sugar cane drink.
loretta bought a watch.
nice n simple . hehs.
den headed to her hse.
at first suppose to watch saw3.
but it turn out to be a weird show.
den watch hills hav eyes 2.
is slow. n scary. especially de part . de man shoot himself n his head blew off.
ok tats disgusting.
but half way, her comp went off.
so we chose another movie.
we watch dawn of de dead.
funnaye. but SUPER SUPER DISGUSTIN!!!
i tell u . is so disgusting tat i m sooooo worried
tat i dun dare to step out of loretta s hse.
so i called ppl n ask if they r ok.
actually i onli called gladys lols!
cos got one part
de guy was near de window n all de zombies grab him .
den de zombies r like jus use their freakin HANDS! n dig his organs out.
n eat!
n all his body parts all GONE! de zombies like jus pull it out wit their bare freakin hands
u noe how disgusting to witness de organs being pull out!!!!!!!
arghhhhh!! lols.
ok. n a no. of times me n loretta scream.
lols so funny.
i cant stand sum of de characters in de show.
it annoys me like mad.
but is stil funny.
after de show , i went home .
i feel safe after i receive sum of de ppl s msges.
phew.~
TML SENTOSA! wooooooo!
golden skin colour here i com hehehs. xD
hope it will look golden =x hahas .

i dun wanna care.

but i sumhow want u to com bac !

2007-06-12T13:37:00.000+08:00

well. dere r quite a no. of things i m goin to blog abt.
ytd de ytd, went sentosa wif xiner n peeps
hahas sry to kept them waiting . x)
cos i left my freakin wallet at home n my key is inside de wallet -.=
right.so.. i rush dwn to bedok inter.
meet them den took train to vivo.
ate lunch at vivo. walk ard fer awhile. den took bus to sentosa.
went to de beach .
hahas. well.. first thing they do is go inside de water.
i tot i wont be pushed in to de water. sumhow i m de las victim. lols!
summore i didn brin extra clothes man!!
joelle very cute. lost my jersey. in de sea! lols.
funnaye.
after swimming . me n sam did ' sandbathing '
she keep throwin sand at me. tsktsk. lols.
i was busy msg-ing. so is she lols.
so after de activities.went to ' bathe '
bernice n siewling took super long man!!
after tat, went bac to vivo had dinner.
everyone is like hungry ghost. xD
den walk ard. i was laughin wif anqi like mad.
cos de way she tok
mus point up, den will accidentally go inside sumone s nose
den so disgusting
n she laugh like nobody s business
xD
den went to de pool at vivo,
de water very warm . nice.~
after xiner n sam busy shoppin whn sum of us hav to go home lols!
took train bac.
i alight at bedok den HOME
.

ytd. watch movie wif alaine n clare.
nice man~
i wan jack sparrow to be my bf.
hahas! he s soooo cute in de show lahs.
yep den after tat, met jan n charlotte at bedok .
den met jo n ah bee at bedok inter.
we head to fishermen .
order food n drink.
den while drinkin wait fer yinjie n zhi hao to com.
n de nex thing i noe
i was sooo high
den home. xD
man i m full of rubbish
xD.

yepp tats it fer ytd n ytd de ytd lols!

i really want u to com bac.

cos my feelings fer u r fading.

n i dun wan it to fade!

S.O.B.

2007-06-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

i miss... loretta.siti.sakeenah.[S.O.B].kengling.aljunied peeps.cca

so yahs. today, i went jan s hse ard in de noon.
walk ard. slack. tok.
slack at her hse. laugh laugh.
decided to go fishermen fer dinner.
met yinjie.yinjie s fren(xinyuan) i think hahas.
den ate chicken wing.french fries n drank beer.
slack slack. smoke smoke. drink drink
until me n jan s head abit heavy. seh seh ~
after tat , we took bus till white sands.
jan injured her foot. :/
cab home. i ran after e bus like sum idiot.
luckily i was wearin jersey pants. easier fer me to run .
well . tats it fer today .

you make me so pissed.

2007-06-09T10:23:00.000+08:00

应该劝你离开他,可是我却怎么也做不到.
因为当你笑着说,我最好了是你知心朋友
我不敢也没有勇气告诉你
别把我当朋友

wondering today got go out anot. =/

tot i will be goin city hall .

but i guess even if i go city hall, i oso wont get to ce her.

loretta left alrdy . ):

tml sentosa.

not excited?

hais. i had been thinkin all night.

i m jus so pissed.

n i dunnoe y .

y m i liking sumone hu dun even care abt my existence in de world.

is a bad thing noe.

but is like whn i ce her. i jus forget abt tat .

felt like crying .

but cant cry . -.=

she s leaving ltr. urgh!

i m so bored here man.

siti n sak r coming bac!! soooonnnnn.. x)

i m happy.

shld i msg her?

2007-06-09T01:09:00.001+08:00

i seriously feel like showin _l_ to my father.
so irritatin! on n off de stupid broadband.
urgh!
i m jus goin to blog abt today n express my feelings.
first in de morning , woke up at 10.
got ready fer goin to wild wild wet wif jan.ah bee & bel .
wait until 11 fer sumone s promise. :/
den while waitin fer time to pass.
i was tokin to loretta on msn n eatin ban mian.
wait until.. 11.45++
went dwn stairs wait fer jan n ah bee s cab to com.
den off to dwntown .
i tell u . early in de mornin, i was quite pissed alrdy. urgh! sicko.
den reach dwntwn , jan wan to eat .
she ate laksa. n i ate tang yuan n is AGAIN!
i ate super lot tis days tsktsk*shake head*
after tat , waste time again.
went in wild wild wet.
put our stuffs. eat grass first.
den go play .
de first thing is de river. s l a c k ~
but we r enjoying. so is a gud thing.
oh! n i tell u . de lifeguard is wooo! cute man hahas.
i m goin to work dere whn i m older x3
after river, play de ular lah .
wah kaos. scary lahs de front part.
scream like mad cow.
den all de *toot*toot* com out
funnaye.
lols. after tat, all chiong go eat -.=
n again! i eat soooo fuckin much. T.T
i swear i not goin to eat anymore tml.
lols.
alrights after eating, eat grass again.
den play river . ah bee n jan played de samsung.
scary~
den play play play. bathe. bel left early
head to tm.
they meet jo they all . n i left wif loretta.
man i m goin to miss her like mad!
=s we ate mushroom. hahhas! n is nice ok!
den walk ard. tok tok.
saw ah ben . hayden those ppl.
so freakin dao lahs.
assholes! xp *bleah*
den loretta hav to leave . den left me . jan. jo. ah bee. yinjie.zhihao.
walk ard. played arcade.
den go prawn fishin at pasir ris.
fish fish fish.
den HOME!
* i wonder hows jan now. =/*

i feel like punchin tat asshole now.

so ass.dunnoe she will read my blog anot.

i feel like an idiot .

always wondering abt u . fuck lahs.

URGH!

2007-06-07T21:09:00.000+08:00

hehes i look like gek sai. anywae.

came bac frm tm.

ate dinner wif loretta.hui qing n one more ger dunnoe how to spell her name=x sry yo !

hahas anywae. after eating . hui qing n one more ger left.

den me n loretta walk ard.

loretta is seriously rapping almos de whole time .

xD can tell sumone is in love~~~

*hearts flyin *

hahas.

kk. so after tat, loretta has to meet her mum at the body shop.

we were laughin n tokin.

den saw sumone!!!! loretta xin piao piao liaos. xD

chase after half way. hais WASTED! XD yepp .

i heard so called a bad news to me.

so pissed.

need to do sum meditation .

i can prove to u i wont like u fer a short period of time

n i shall tell u y ppl will like u fer a short period of time.

cos u dun care abt their existence in the world.

i very faithful one ok! xD

2007-06-07T12:14:00.000+08:00

BON VOYAGE ISABELLE ; SITI & SAKEENAH
hehs. they went oversea .
now at night i dunnoe hu to msg man.=/
woke up quite early today .
nth to do.
wonder today goin out anot.
so bored!! rahhhh !
weird dream las night. o.O
hahas those gross gross type . *disgusted* hehs but is funnaye~
now a days i love to listen to de song MANEATER.
x) nice~
i wan to go shopping!!
but no $ = no shopping.
hahas.
so shit lahs.
ytd. i really cant stop thinkin abt it.
is like. i say i let go but is like stil in my head.
nvm i need sumone to meditate wif me.
so i can throw everything out in my brain .
lols xD
tis sunday, goin sentosa.
tis sunday so many ppl leavin again!
urgh! ass.
ok. shall blog again ltr. if dere s anything. =/

imissgoingaljunied.

2007-06-06T21:09:00.000+08:00

today early in the morning ,

sam came n woke me up.

eat super lot at hawker 85 market wif siti.sak&sam

xD ate NASI LEMAK.LAKSA.TANG YUAN.

man! i m gonna miss siti n sak. they goin msia.=( hu m i suppose to msg at night man. urgh!!!

anywae. de food is like *thumbs up*

hahas .

after eating, i was like goin to puke .

xD stuff all de food. was too full !

den went to clare s hse to watch final destination 3 & mean girls.

hahas. scariiiieeeee..

n i noe de moral of de show.

it tells us tat we mus cherish every single min;time wif ur love ones.

ce i noe.!

oh oh sam!

whn i punch u .

u better say.

one day priscilla foo punch me n its awesome! xD

ce tat dude!

hahas!

2007-06-05T18:12:00.000+08:00

today is de most tiring day.
): was upset of smth & my eyes r like keep closing.
i m really tired of this love thing.
so sick of it.
seeing ppl so happy with de person they love.
will make me feel more hurt.
i jus want to run away , lock myself at home and slp.
think that without love i can stil pull through.
although i m tat kind of person too addicted to love.
but i stil will try not to hav tis addict anymore.
love is like thrash to me now.
i wan to throw it away.
nv pick it up again anymore.
i would rather walk on de path without love ; hurt
than walking on de path wif love ; hurt.
frens is just wad i could think of.
i got tis attitude now. n tat is ..
i dun like to witness other ppl happiness .
goin to lock myself up in my room.
stare into space n fall aslp.
not goin to eat . not goin to think of anything .
jus goin to relax myself at home.

2007-06-04T18:38:00.000+08:00

ME&MOTHER ;<3
well. now a days i feel BROKE!
no money = no shopping.
rahhhhhhhhhh! i wan to buy tat freakin bag!
alrights today ; cca.
played a new song . to me is new lahs. hahas
teached de sec 1s to memorise but end up all bullyin one person
man! they r real funnaye.
xD
after cca, went to macs.
melissa is the planner of our outing.
hahahs! feather broadcast.
ok i mus stop my craziness.
anywae..
den we r goin SENTOSA!!!! WOOO!!
tis wednesday.
so excited
pray super hard tat it wont rain man .
goin to sandbathe wif siti .
den picnic. ok i dunnoe how to spell .
hahas. i think its goin to be fun man ..
well many ppl s leaving sg.
so i shall enjoy myself here in sg x)
PPL HU S GOIN OVERSEAS. PLS DUN MISS ME! x) hahas! *bhb!
so yepp . many many outings coming soon .x)
tml cca yay!
hahas. cca seriously cheer me up like mad .
can laugh wif sam like crazy . xD
*punch her face!* OOPS JUS FEEL LIKE DOIN IT hahas.
sam.me!.zion.loretta<3

------

i need time to let me calm myself down .

2007-06-04T01:20:00.000+08:00

SILENCE.
everything is just fake.
dont wanna blog abt today .
i just hav to face the fact.
i m a bloody bastard to everyone.
wasting my tears ; blood.
if i had a chance to restart my life.
i will.

sympathy?comfort?
none of them is here wif me now.

2007-06-03T00:06:00.001+08:00

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

[Chorus]

Now I see, what love means

2007-06-02T22:11:00.000+08:00

SHE'S THE MANEATER

yay yay!! my mum allow me to go buy bikini hahahahhahas!

money money here i com.

n i goin to freakin get a bag!

wooo~ happaye.

tis is wad i called life

g - l - a - m - o - r - o - u - s

today ! early in de morning, my beloved mother >> LORETTA.

came to my hse n wake me up.

ahahas!

head to airport!

tot i could do finish my hw but didn =/

hahas. nvm nex week goin SENTOSA! yay yay! excited man

after airport. rush to tm

ahhas!! n is really rush .

x) bought a cake . n met sam at watson dere.

damn! is soooo damn hard to light de candles man .

den ask her to faster make wish n blow e candles cos she need to go off.

yepp so ..send her off den left me.sam.xiner n loretta.

loretta left kinda early.

so left de 3 of us

man! i dunnoe y .they seem to hav sum laughin disease.

hahs! i cant stop laughin wif them .

is like i laugh almos everything abt de things they say lahs.

argh! i wonder y .. xD

yepp den we 3 sit in de toilet . laugh laugh laugh .

until sam punch me like an idiot.

hahs. after tat, xiner hav to go home .

left me n sam rush to airport again!

hahas. she was 'running' n i was behind laughin like mad cow. hahs!

den after tat, ce her stead den we all left got our asses bac to tm .

hahas! we r like poor kids.

den go my hse

watch de sch of rock!

rahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

me n sam de same thing keep laughin.

hahas!

oh oh! we bought whatever n anything drink .

de anything drink is scary ~~

hahas!

well. nex week. many ppl goin off.

i shall enjoy relaxin here. XD

as long my laughin partner is here

i wont be bored. if not i cant laugh .hahas!

If you ain't got no money take yo'broke ass home

2007-06-01T19:35:00.000+08:00

just escape from the pain.

today went out wif xiner.joelle&sam!

hahas. first we ate at tm food court.

had fun making fun of sumone. hahas!

after tat , we walk ard..

xiner shop fer her tops.

n i m goin to save money to buy sam s present.x)

i rmb the price. its stuck in my brain.hahs.

yepp so after tat, we went to cs!!

walk ard..

den neoprint-ing. x)

i was broke . suppose to catch a movie but cos of me being BROKE! den nv watch T.T

anywae. den walk ard. xiner got her ear pierced.

so walk ard again. n i m startin to get crazy.

i m laughin over small things

& sam enjoy laughin wif me too XD

we can laugh frm cs to tm macs. hahas!!

eh sam! ur KUTI. LOLS!!

*punch her arm* sry i jus feel like doin it hahas!!!

stupid lame shit.

den went home.

i ran after de bus n my pants r dropping. so embarrassing!

hahas yepp tats it fer today .

2007-05-31T20:03:00.000+08:00

I MISS CCA!!
man ! i m so freaking bored.
as u can ce i keep blogging cos i m bored. =/
i feel like goin fer a swim but i lazy to wear swimsuit lehs.
jus want to soak in the water n enjoy.
hahas. if onli i got a indoor spa at home.
den i can play the song ' time to say goodbye ' n enjoy the peacefulness surrounding.
enjoyin the sensation of spa.xD
wahhhhhhhhhh! i love tis kind of life.
if onli i m rich . i will hav hav my own bathroom . n hav spa.
no. i m goin to call massager. xD
n massage fer me . wooooo~~~
anywae..
NEED ENTERTAINMENT PLS!

2007-05-31T11:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BDAE AH MAH!

jus woke up.

man! my throat damn pain lahs. early in the morning .

cough like siao. i think my asthma is coming bac. =(

rahhh!

now a days had weird dreams

but i cant rmb it at all .

w e i r d ~

i want to change my style alrdy lahs.

so tired but dunnoe wad style to change to lehs.

waitin fer one day can go shoppin wif my mother.

so long nv go out wif tat woman lers.

oh las night i was lookin through las time pictures in my document.

n i realise i nv go out wif rebecca fer a very long time.

wonder how was she man ..

oi jie !! if u read tis arhs. pls be gan dong.xD

yepp.. =) nex time jio me out lehs.

our ang gong haven do lehs. everytime say do do . in de end oso nv do .

--------------

i m goin to pretend nth happens.

i not goin to like u anymore.

cos i realise i cant fall in love.

2007-05-30T18:43:00.000+08:00

_l_
cca cheered me up today .
actually it cure half of my illness.
i learn how to play chelsea s instrument.fun man! x)
more to learn.
yepp after cca . went to eat wif sam.mel & zaiba.
hahas they keep laughin n laughin cos they keep disturbin mel n AHEM AHEM.*
lols. funnaye.but it cant make me laugh .
so after lunch . took bus wif clare n isabel to home.
i was very irritated wif the weather
cos it make me n my mother felt itchy
n i had to bathe super lots of times.
den arhs! omg so many freakin ants can !!!!!!
first . my illness is makin me bursting.
2ndly , the itchy-ness.
3rdly, the ants.
4thly, PEOPLE.
all these r freakin gettin on to my nerves.
now i feel like jus run away n hav a peaceful time fer myself n relax.
no. i feel like havin cca now. although the weather sux.
but i stil want to.
--------

i m so freakin PISSED!

2007-05-30T10:00:00.000+08:00

ytd rush home frm chalet.

bathe n all den rush to sch fer cca.

ltr oso hav cca. .

ytd I WAS SICK .

so sick tat i feel like punchin ppl.

i wonder y i got sick.

keep sneezing n sneezing de whole day .

tot is jus flu n but it turn out tat , de flu is makin my whole body ache.

n my throat dry like SHIT.

is like very xin ku lahs.=(

hais.sians. i was thinkin how to go cca like this.
shake halfway ltr my angklung fly how.

ARGH!

woke up found out its raining.

n i found smth else in my hp.

finally hur.

stupid ' global warming '

make me sick.

i think god heard me ytd.

sorry god fer ytd keep scolding u . =/

hahas.

anywae.. i was really piss rite!

n i swear I DUN WAN TO TM ANYMORE .

everytime i walk halfway i dunnoe y . its like auto i wil turn 36o to look out wif smth

sickening.

very tired u noe.

RAHHHH!!

i miss kl.

2007-05-28T15:32:00.000+08:00

chalet ytd. today jus goin bac to eat.=/
dunnoe wad to blog abt oso hahas.
everything is like NOT GOOD.
hais nvm .. dun care oso.
OH I SAW SUMONE AT DWNTOWN.
argh! idiot. hahas.
i m so high now.
cos i start to think of my 2 husbands at japan !!
xD hot hot hot! wooooo! hahas.
nex time i sad arhs. i jus ce my 2 husbands. i will be very happy until i melt arhs hahas!
ok shall blog nex time. goin to ce my 2 husbands xD

2007-05-27T12:29:00.000+08:00

i had realised smth n i wan to blog it dwn .
sometimes you really had to let go
the person who you love
because you love the person.
i noe is abit no sense . but i jus wan to blog it dwn fer myself
hahas.mad.

i m goin to let it go.

2007-05-27T09:13:00.000+08:00

havin very bad headache early in the morning.

ytd night was so shit.

i got a feeling i really did confess.

n i oso got another feeling tat i didn.

cant rmb.

but i sumhow felt numb.

even now i oso feel like vomitting.

=*(

heart pain like shit.

now i m alone at home.

parents went msia.

i jus need company..

2007-05-26T14:02:00.001+08:00

GOIN TO POST MORE STUPID VIDS!
hahas. those vids seriously cheer me up man.
retarded.dumb.embarrassing!
hahas! WATCH IT DUDES (;

2007-05-25T19:40:00.001+08:00

i like the song of tat movie , spider lillies.

forget de song name but yahs.

i had gotten back my results.

i failed all except chinese.

was upset tat i failed maths fer the first time.

had a tok wif mdm sim .

was encouraged to work harder so i can get to go NAFA .

or even now i can take part time course from dere.

but its too ex.

i wan to fulfill my dream , be a designer.

but i cant concentrate. =(

nth makes me interested .

keep telling myself tat i mus work hard but actually i m jus tokin shit.

i dislike myself always lying.

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the worst moments , you seem to be at another end of the world.

2007-05-25T10:14:00.001+08:00

was being woken up by a stupid call frm kelvin.
i wan to slp de lehs !
hahas. anywae.. ltr 4.30 onwards will be de time whn u can find me at e cemetry.
hope mdm sim doesnt say all my secrets out.
if not DIE!
now a days , i had being very sensitive.
i dunnoe y ..
everyday curse curse curse. hahas.
but at least i make sum ppl laugh .
yay! tuesday got cca.
after cca , most probably goin to watch movie. =)
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WHY LIKE PEOPLE WHO DO NOT EVEN CARE.

2007-05-24T22:21:00.000+08:00

the pain is just too real.

ilostmypenknife

sch was super boring.

first half of de day, we did hav lessons.

PE . run 10 stupid rounds.

den RE. watch tis very lame show . wad spelling shit one.

so lame lahs. dunnoe wad de ppl laughin abt oso .

hahas 3/4 watch de POA vid.

so pai seh! sickening.. lols

den recess , was super depressed n pissed.

another half of de day , we got tis tok.

n need to choose course.

i chose fashion designing n image consultant.

so excited fer de course to com .=)

den de prefect thingy..

wah kaos! damn boring lahs. fell aslp man .

den de principal was like ......bwg.

got cca after tat , was pek chek cos of de heat!

de fans were broken ! can u imagine all of us r like sweating like mad shit.

keep fanin each other. hahas.

den dismiss . n i went home.

I am such a fool.

giving up?

I regret that i make the wrong choice.

at least she cares.

2007-05-23T23:36:00.000+08:00

today is really SWAY UNTIL CANNOT SWAY.

i came late fer sch.

i was bothered by smth .

no money to buy de physic book.

internet connection like kenna sai.

my msn contact almos ALL GONE!

wa kaos.den after sch, went out wif sam n gladys to tm

had lunch. walk ard. bought my white rose

cos i m goin to pluck all de petals out.

after tat . gladys went home n sam came to my hse.

she s watchin alot like love.

n i m busy preparing to go katong shoppin centre.

i was high all de way .

scold scold . laugh laugh since tis mornin till evening .

met jan.jo.yinjie&ah bee at KTV.

sing sing sing..

after singing, went tm .suppose to watch movie.

but spend money on cab fare -.=

den left $0 . siiiiiaaaannnnn.

in de end we jus walk ard n stuffs.

played at e arcade.

i was really pek chek.

cos i was starin at de phone like almos all de time.

i was lookin ard jus to ce whether i can ce sumone.

but i dun.

SO FED UP!

i think tml is goin to be another sway day

friday is de day whn i m goin to dig fer my grave.

i heard tw is goin off sg.

feel weird though. ~

dunnoe y . anywae. yi lu shun feng ! =)

hope she sees it.

fer aurelia tan. whey! wher de hell u go man. nv appear in sch one.

i m goin to blog abt my feelings fer today .

i feel tat y m i always de one witnessing other ppl being so happy while i m at de side , staring into space.

but surprisingly i m happy tat i ce my frens happy.

although its stil hurt but i try my very bes not to think of it.

i had my own limits of being happy. but i chose to tolerate till i went home.

Janelle: hey! i noe u r half sad n half happy . lols. make de right choice. think of de happy things n not de past which is like makin u sad.~~ sooo .. u shld noe wad i m tokin abt .sumtimes u think tat u dun wanna like her cos of sum stuffs. but! u said b4 stayin like tis , u r happy ; satisfy . so jus be happy. =)

Joanna: jooooo... hahs. i wan u to be happy leis. dun always listen to music den left me n jan like sum idiots wandering.*although she got ppl pei hurrr* but yah lahs. de main thing i wan to say is tat u n jan r always de one hu r willing to be my listener. which make us more close. i m very happy to hav u n her. so nex time u got xin shi. dun say NTH .so standard lahs.. i m really want to share xin shi wif u =) . same goes to jan.

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to my darlings. : DUN BE AFFECTED BY ONE PERSON. not worth it.

2007-05-22T17:50:00.000+08:00

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So, mesmerizing and so hypnotizing,
I am captivated, I am

{Chorus}
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me
So isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am

{Chorus}

So turn
up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment for forever

Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'll be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away

{Chorus}
Like hope
dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

2007-05-22T17:42:00.000+08:00

RAHHHHHHHHH!!!
today i slept in class almos de whole day.
n mdm sim wanted to tok to me bcos of tis.
noe wad SHE S DAMN NICE!
n i actually told her half of my probs.
hahas. i guess i wont hate her so much alrdy ..
i decided to gif her a chance.
=) hope will teach us successfully . hehs.
btw . after sch . went pasir ris wif sak.
suppose to do my ezlink
but! dun hav ic or birth cert
so irritating. lols!
after tat had lunch at burger king.
saw clare . isabel n alaine.
psst! i tell u . I CANT STOP SCOLDING SUMONE MAN!
she s makin my brain burst.
argh!
sakeenah shld noe hu i m referring to xD
den sak bought me brownie~~ <3
hehs. brownie wif milk is HEAVEN =)
cab to nat s hse n to my hse.
de uncle forget to turn dunnoe wher.
n i had to walk bac myself. -.=
nvm exercise hahas.
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i had decided NOT TO CARE ANYMORE!
RAHHHHHHHHHH!

2007-05-21T19:55:00.000+08:00

tat remind me of my son. SAMANTIO lols.

today wad can i say. being super FAKE HYPER .

but i stil go crazy. xD

i keep falling aslp durin chinese.

den my teacher was like YING XIAN.~

sian..

me n gladys were tokin abt selfishness durin english ..

hahas. everyone is selfish in different ways.

anywae, after sch . cca was fun

cos we played games although we were late.

it was very fun whn we play DOG & BONE. hahas!

they call many many funny stuffs.

lols. den play whacko..

damn funny. hahas. !

after cca , went HOME.

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i m leaving u to die.

dun even think of lookin at my class ppl .

or SAY THEY COPY CAT UR SUPER UGLY HAIRSTYLE.bangs

no sense of ORIGINALITY. er xin *bleah*

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super tired.

de more i care de more i get hurt.

2007-05-20T22:02:00.000+08:00

my husband is damn CUTE! lols. can u ce him . up dere. lols!

k.. i m collectin more of his pic.cos i m seriously goin mad over him ..

came bac frm chalet.

it started on friday ..

evening , my ez link card is lost .

everyone is stressing me .

my mum is addin more oil onto me.

n my anger got up even more.

den left e hse to chalet.

bbq.~

bought stuffs.

slowly more ppl com .

den.. at night .

went out wif loretta.gladys.alaine.zion&nat.

till e nex morning.

saturday ..

i slept in de chalet alone . waitin fer jan n ah bee to com .

de rest went escape.

den ltr jan n ah bee came.

i bathe n slp again.

den wait fer them com bac. ate ben n jerry

evenin. i went home put my stuffs n head bac chalet.
at night. me n jo were drunk.

i lost lahs ok. cos i cried first. ass. lols.

yup. go red hse.

slp.. de nex day . check out.

n here i m . blogging.

lols.

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to me is a wonderful dream.

although it onli last fer awhile.

2007-05-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

And I never wanna say goodbye*

went to cycle wif loretta today
fun n it really cheers me up .
although now i m stil depressed.
but wad can i do?
=/ hmm .
oh whn we were cycling ..
got tis man damn funny
he was screamin i think bcos he was listenin to those heavy metal songs lols!!
u can hear him frm another end man
lols!
loretta roller blade. n i cycle.
it was really fun . =)

2007-05-16T15:16:00.000+08:00

never want anything
damn upset today.
got bac my exams results.
it sux.
it was my first time tat i failed maths.
57/120 .
i failed english .
its really unexpected.
i control my tears de whole day .
dunnoe whether i want to cry bcos of tis or i want to cry bcos of smth else.
when was the las time whn i was so high n crazy . ??
argh!! i didn even noe. i even can forget to eat.
WAD DE HELL M I SO DISTRACTED ABT?!
i need sumone to freakin wake me up .
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running away from other ppl s happiness
not to stand by n wittness .
cause i dun wan to get hurt.

2007-05-15T21:21:00.000+08:00

unexplainable feeling
GOD! i slp frm ytd evenin 6 till tis afternoon 1++
i m so pig.
nvm . hahas. was sick . GASTRIC !
aarrgghh !
my stomach hurts like mad.
den wait fer siti n sakeenah to com over
watch supernatural.. 1 or 2 episode .
den they left n loretta came.
i went to bathe.
off to tm
met zion. suppose to watch 200 pound beauty
but DUN HAV!
so bored. but didn wan to go home so early.
but my stomach stil hurts. =(
walk walk..
THNKS TO MY MOTHER FER BUYIN ME E COW !!! GRAZER.xD
n i bought e cow cup x)
so happy.
yepp . den ate hagen diaz.
hahas. tat super got memory place.
den HOME.

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sumhow i just feel broken .
psst! de medicine sux .

2007-05-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

alrights goin to jus summarise.
i was so bored so i was lookin through sum of de foto in my documents.
thinkin of las time.
was so happy n all .
dunnoe y i ended up like this.
from :D become ):
i was so pek chek today .
cos of my mother
god . can die.
nvm .
now a days i m a depressed kid. =(

2007-05-13T09:04:00.000+08:00

i m damn tired now.
i miss de woman in de pic xD
KL! BE GLAD PLS.
hahas.. say i disappear.
x)
anywae..
ytd ton at jan s hse.
b4 tat.. we took de boat again at clarke quay.
den went to jan s hse to wait fer ppl s work to finish .
change . n everything s done.
dwn to blk 85
eat supper.
didn eat much cos felt like vomitting.
went bac to jan s hse.
they went high . n i was very cool surfing e net hahas. xD
den . play play until they call sumone.
i was like ok. sumhow i felt very emotionless.
yepp .
den blah blah ..
played true or dare.
play until i got no more energy .
den everyone went to slp . zzz
me n jo stil tokin abt smth else.
oh b4 tat we had a short period of confession .
yep .
jan cant stop laughin over a dumb call she made.
i tell u how it goes.
jan: hello ! tomato !
stranger: huh ?
stranger: who r u ?
jan:i m potato !

tats de part she cant stop laughin abt it.
lols. mad .
k..

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no one ever heard me whn my heart is cracking.
no one ever notice me whn my tears are dripping.

listen to tis song . is nice to me cos its stuck in my head .

2007-05-12T13:09:00.000+08:00

ytd was woos~
lols.
out wif jan.jo n ah bee.
first we went bugis. walk walk. take neoprint ..
den play pool . hahas. i finally noe how to play alrdy x)
after playin went to eat dinner at marina south.
drink . eat . laugh .
end up all emo except jan .
she s siao lahs. lols
although i was abit seh but i stil can walk properly.
but i cannot control my tears. =/
so after tat. i was abit pek chek . cos i m controllin my tears. hahas
took cab dwn bac to bugis.
wanted to shop but didn .
instead we took de DHL hot air balloon!! xD
omg! is damn nice x)
very windy although is abit freaky whn u look dwn
cos is seriously high x)
den we went to play pool again after tat.
after all thnks to ah bee fer payin e DHL thing. n jan fer lecturing me xD
i m really tryin my very bes now. =)

2007-05-10T20:41:00.000+08:00

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

un-noticeable

finally i m free. exams r FINISHED.

thinkin that i can really go relax

but things jus change my life

i tot i will be happy

instead i got more hurt.

m i really the grass?

i m losin my self confidence

after this

i wil learn tis mistake

nex time i wont be so havin too much of self confidence

if not i will be ' makin a fool ' of myself.

dere s one more thing i dun understand

y everytime in front of her . u dun dare to say hi to me

onli whn u not wif her . den u say hi n bye n all

noe wad i had enuff

jus might as well dun even say anything ok.

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